I couldn't sleep. My neighbors had a party and the music was very loud and now I fell awful. This headache is kicking my ass. Yesterday I phoned my grandma in Arizona, she is fine but the weather is terrible she said. It's so hot that the cows are giving evaporated milk and the trees are whistling the dogs. Damn I admire my grandma. Longevity is a plus in my family but if I continue this fat it's more than predictable that I won't be here for a long time ! NOOOO! I do NOT want to die very young and sexy (and almost horny everyday). I still haven't seen Paris. My friend Lisa says I should quit smoking and I know that ain't good for my health. I should try those patches....

Like Amy says: I don't understand why I do stress a man... I'm agree with her. I won't fuck myself in the head with these stupid men. I'm talking bout 'em because yesterday I was chatting with a guy that I met 3 weeks ago or so and I realize how stupid some men can be. I wish I could go on vacations, somewhere.......... like Jamaica or hmmm New Zealand. Sounds cool.

I'm 23 years old and if there's something I miss about being a teenager I think is this feeling of "Ilussions". I mean when you are 13 or 16 you see somebody u like and you start to feel a little nervious, you feel this anxiety... something weird happens and you lose your mind. Well, now I think a little different, I don't have these kinds of feelings anymore. No more ilussions maybe and the point is that I really really miss 'em. Probably nobody was born 4 me... !!!!!!!

Well it's enough for today. NO song today
Love Gerry L-